Fibromyalgia

I’ve been really struggling with my fibromyalgia recently and having to keep taking time off work. I don’t like doing this but unfortunately I’ve had to. I’ve had tough times with it before and then was able to work after being prescribed medication to manage it.

I went off sick a year ago and each time I return to work I find myself in agonising pain all over and really bad muscle spasms in my upper back which then gives me headaches and pain all down my left arm.

I often am wiped out the next day which is annoying. When I’ve been back a while I often find that by the time I come home after working all day my whole body feels like it’s on fire and I can barely walk. The soles of my feet hurt so much my wrists and hands hurt so bad. I then end up going straight to bed. For me this feels like existing and not living. I like my job and I like the people I work with and I’ve got to know a lot of the customers. I just wish there was a way I could manage this fibromyalgia better. I used to work a lot of hours and enjoyed it. When I was younger I had two jobs. I’ve never minded working, it seems now my body is letting me down.

I’ve just listed some of the symptoms that I suffer. Fibromyalgia is a real pain, literally. I don’t like to complain about it at work or to my friends and family though. Don’t want to fill the air with negative energy. I try to be positive. I mean no one wants to hear someone constantly moaning. I definitely don’t. That’s why I’m writing it down. Television is a great escape for me. I also love Christmas so can’t wait to watch all the Christmas movies and visit the Garden Centres all decorated. It’s so magical. Writing poems helps me to express how I’m feeling so that also helps. Relaxation is also good. So is sitting on the sofa in Autumn snuggled up with your favourite throw, autumn candles lit, a very large mug of tea and a bar of chocolate. Tea and Chocolate make so many things better even if just for a short while.